Oh gosh, blogging and I have had a rough go of it these past few years. The thought process behind my blog went something like this...
I love reading blogs.
I feel like I have online friends, which is perfect since I'm a lonely stay at home mom.
But it's a one-sided friendship, and I would like to record all my family's memories, so I will start my own blog.
Oh my gosh, I have so much I NEED to say!! My views are so important!
Every post will be about my cute kids or about my personal opinions on the world. It's just so interesting!
Why do other bloggers have so many followers and comments? What are they doing that I'm not? Why doesn't anybody like me?
Oh, I get it. I have to write about controversial issues that will increase my popularity because people will want to debate me.
Oh and I can host reviews and giveaways so that people will follow my blog!
Oh and I can leave tons of comments every day on everybody else's blog, like it's my full-time job, so that they will feel obligated to come back and comment on mine!
Wait a minute, blogging feels like a lot of work. Should I commit so much time to something I'm not reaping benefits from?
Where did all my (old) blogging buddies go? Who are all these new (young) bloggers?
It's getting hard to write about my kids as they grow older for fear of embarrassing them. They have a right to privacy. Is this why most mommy bloggers have little kids?
Why do so many bloggers want to give advice on how to parent when they are still in the throes of parenting? Shouldn't people doling out parenting advice already have lived through all the childhood stages and kept their kids alive to adulthood? That's the advice I want to hear!
I know nothing about anything. Nothing at all.
The older I get, the more compassionate and understanding I am to other's struggles and viewpoints. All of my parenting ideals and world views have changed. My opinions may not be the best for everybody (gasp!) Who am I?
I don't have time for this blogging world I used to love. I can barely keep up with friends/work/school/sports in my real life, never mind this virtual life. Maybe it's time to say goodbye.
But my young kids don't have nearly as many photos or memories captured here like my older ones used to. That's not fair to them. I love looking back and seeing what my kids were doing way back when.
I should try to blog more. Even if it's just about things only I care about recording. I need to stop overthinking everything.
But what exactly can I write about?
And here we are.